Passion Week

This week is my spring break, and I was hoping to get some rest from school, stress, family, from the world haha. Instead I get stressed out parents, church stuff, and take home school work. What is the point of spring break when all school is going to follow you home?!?! My spring break is almost over, I have four more days to go. Haha...spring break...rest....right ok. But even though my spring break wasn't what I expected, I learned from the things I looked over. I learned to learn, to appreciate, just realizing the small things...man I feel so stupid just to overlook the small things I do everyday. Just talking to new people, and the people I don't normally talk to....makes me feel alive again. Makes me feel so weird too haha. I've been living a life that I don't really enjoy, a life that I've lost interest in. I feel so selfish saying that, but I go to school mon-fri then church sat-sun. I don't go out much, to the mall anywhere. I do enjoy being a christian and going to church, but lately I go to church out of responsibility...not out of my heart. This week, spring break has made me realize what I used to love, who I am, what I want. I feel so free, I feel so warm and alive haha. I picked up my bible today and fasted for dinner, honestly for the first couple verses I was just reading. In one ear, out the other. They were just words, but then I really put my mind to the verses. Difficult to explain, but I guess you could say I was touched by Grace, and Hope was holding my hand. My sense of indiviuality returned, my sense of true happiness returned. Before I read the bible, I looked outside and though " The moon is pretty...like yesterday..." After I read the bible I looked out and saw the same moon and though " Thank you Lord, for my life, every breath, love....The moon is God's beautiful creation as am I." I am thankful for my sister, parents, friends, new encounters and my life. I never want to lose myself again. Thank you God for this opportunity.